... where I've been, who I am, do I fit in?
Sometimes I wonder if all those things that meant that much to me the moment they happened to me are meaningless now their time is gone. How can something that felt so true, so damn true, be so wrong the next day? Reading some of my earlier posts almost shock me; have I ever felt this way? Seems so. But it lost every bit of its meaning. What does this mean to my current feelings? Are they that perishably? I can't imagine that and I really hope it's not like that but I think I thought this already... wow. Feels like we're really really small in this big universe and like we don't understand a bit. Hm, funny thing actually.
Well, but for now I know what I feel and it was never that easy to feel (that's what I feel/ think NOW about it) indeed. And certainly I've never trusted that much in my feelings and in another person in my life than now, it's never felt that right to trust. Even there are also some difficulties but if there are not, something would be wrong. Wouldn't it?
But some feelings have never changed and I'm damn sure they never will... Oma ♥
